RCIA classes are about halfway over and I hate to say it - they haven't quite been the experience I was hoping for. Our teachers are quite sedate and most of the other candidates are there just be able to participate in church as a family (admirable, but I was hoping for at least one other person who wanted to be there for themselves); we learned quickly that both of our teachers have very literal trains of thoughts and any use of metaphor scares them - answering a question by relating the subject matter to a roller-coaster ride was met with looks that made me wonder if I'd grown horns.
They are downright timid when it comes to enthusiasm and it's kind of taking away from my experience to be honest. Their hearts are in the right place of course, but I find myself wondering if there might have been an Advanced RCIA that I could have signed up for - I've already educated myself (through books, friends and family) on so much we're covering and honestly I want to dive into the some of the knitty gritty aspects - I want that to be my test as we approach Easter. Don't just tell be what the sacraments are - challenge my notions on why they are important, etc.
In the end the end is what matters and so much of this journey I've taken on my own, but it can be a little bit of a let down to step into something that you were hoping would continue to inspire you and instead you find yourself wondering if there's going to be a pop quiz and if you should have reviewed your trigonometry notes.
Instead of dwelling on all of this I'm trying to look at my RCIA experience from the inside out - there are so many more things going on as a result of this journey that ARE encouraging me in the ways that I need at this moment.
My husband and I are having fantastic discussions about the subject matter, and I've even got him to push through some of the books I've read (he loves the ideas, but hates reading most non-fiction). I brought up the idea of watching Fr. Barron's "Catholicism" documentary together and he just lit up - not only does he love a good documentary (I guess he prefers to see and hear his non-fiction), but he's heard about this Fr. Barron guy and is more than excited to watch it.
Within my little blog world I'm stretching my wings and "meeting" new folk who's lives, experiences and writings continue to excite and challenge me - if I could make you my co-sponsors I would.
As it turns out Advanced RCIA may not be a challenging class, but rather a challenge for me to take my own steps to further my "education".
Next stop Validation (soon hopefully) and Rite of Election (definitely in a few weeks).
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